How do you feed your emotional hunger?

How do you feed your emotional hunger?

on Mar 18, 2015

You know the feeling.  Those pangs that sear through your soul.

You’re hungry … again.

It’s not the physical kind, though.  It’s emotional. So, how do you satisfy those cravings?

You may not even be aware of what is gnawing at you.  Everything on the outside seems to be in order – your career, your family, your friends.  Yet, if you feel restless, you could be spiritually and emotionally starving — with a hungry soul begging for change.

What Are You Hungry For?

Telling the truth, — at least to yourself — about what you deeply long for, want and need is at the very core of satisfying this soul hunger.

Instead, we’re more likely to go through the motions and ignore this call.  Until a crisis hits.   Some outside force (illness, accident, death of someone close to us, job layoff, etc.) hits and forces us to reexamine our priorities.

The Appetizer — Granting Yourself Permission

I’ve always found it interesting that we need this external “permission” to really make those life changes we know on a gut level that we need to make.  You may have heard the expression about “the C card.”

When someone gets a cancer diagnosis, those around them immediately accommodate whatever changes need to be made.  I’ve even heard folks explain that they’re “going to play the C card.”  And there’s certainly nothing wrong with this.

I’m reminded of the ruby slippers in “The Wizard of Oz, “though.  We’ve had the power all along.  It shouldn’t take a life threatening wakeup call.  Yet, it often does.

The Main  Course

It’s just so hard to step back and made wide sweeping changes when everything seems to be going along all right.  The operative word here is “seems.”  You may have played the game so long and kept all those plates spinning that it’s foreign to approach life any other way.  And, yet, there’s that hunger.

If you’ve tried “numbing out” with overeating, drinking, drugs, gambling, sex, shopping or overworking, you’ve probably found these are only temporary fixes.  And the cravings return.

Dr. Robin Smith, noted psychologist, talk show host, ordained minister and author, talks about a time when she felt at the end of her rope in her latest book, “Hungry.”  “Even though I looked alive and vital, the hourglass measuring the aliveness of my soul was swiftly draining to the bottom,” Smith says.  “I was losing my battle to be myself.”

Emotional Anorexia

You may be suffering from emotional anorexia if you exhibit any of these symptoms:

  • You feel empty inside, despite outward appearances that you “have it all.”
  • You find it hard to take off your public mask.
  • You value others’ opinions more than you value your own
  • You have an obsessive need for the approval of others
  • You’re not even sure what defines YOU anymore

It’s as though a type of identity theft has taken place, explains Smith – that of your own identity. We all adapt in different ways, based on our personalities and the ways we’re “wired.”

If you’ve been a people pleaser all your life, it’s not surprising if you end up being resentful of everything you do for others, including giving up your own identity.  If you’re a more aggressive personality, you may have pushed others away in an attempt to “get them before they get you.”

The good news is that, no matter where you fall along this behavioral continuum, you have the ability to change.  It takes a lot of hard work, though.  You need to give yourself permission, rather than waiting for some catastrophe to hit.  And expecting FEMA to show up.

While reclaiming your identity can seem like a scary process, I prefer to look at it in a positive way.   Think of the process like a new cable network that’s being launched.

The Self Discovery Channel

      Just like any other network, programming is available 24 hours a day.  If you plan to launch this network, take a look at some of the shows you’ll need to create:

  • Stepping Out of My Comfort Zone
  • Stop Faking It
  • Speaking Up and Reclaiming my Identity
  • Setting Boundaries
  • Putting My Own Oxygen Mask on First

     *     I Gotta Be Me – Even if Others Don’t Like It

     *    Getting My Strokes Internally, Not Externally

*    Dining on My Own Loaf, Not Others’ Crumbs

Staying Tuned In and Getting Full

As I’ve often said, we teach people how to treat us.  And you’ve taught those around you to expect certain behaviors.  So, there will be some rough sledding.  Keep tuning into your inner barometer, though.  And give yourself kudos for every little victory – no matter how small.

You’ll need to “armor up.” Feel free to try a neutral phrase to deflect the demands of others – and to buy some time – while you’re figuring things out:  “That just won’t work for me right now.”  Not only are you retraining yourself; you’re retraining those around you.  And it takes time and discipline.

Maybe you feel that gnawing, that hunger.  But you’re just not ready to take action.  Or you’ve decided to accept certain conditions because of tradeoffs involved. That’s okay.  It’s your life.

Nobody has the right to tell you what to think, feel or dream.  You – and only you – can know what you feel at your core.  And if – or when – you want to do anything differently.

One of my favorite terms is  YOUGOTTAWANTA.  A favorite quote by Anais Nin sums it up.

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”